Monday, May 12, 2008

Crazy AND Pregnant

I am so very happy to report that my betas have continued to rise:

352, 831, 2034...

But I think I've discovered a new kind of crazy! I am so nervously excited about being pregnant, but at the same time, I'm a complete bundle of nerves? When I got the call from the nurse that my test was 2034, I was elated... for about 24 hours. Then, Mr. Anxiety came knocking at the door, again.

I keep looking for more and more symptoms, and I realize that in the fertile world, people are only now discovering that they are pregnant. But I keep sizing myself up hour by hour, am I tired? Am I sick? Do my boobs still hurt? Do they hurt more than before?

I want so badly to enjoy this time, but I'm so scared, it's hard. I've heard this is normal, but I feel like a complete freak. My first US is Wednesday, a lifetime from now.

Keeping my fingers crossed until Wednesday.

Monday, May 5, 2008

Still Freaking, but some good news

On Sunday my beta was 143...

Taking it day by day... next test, Tuesday.

Friday, May 2, 2008

Freaking out

Got a positive POAS this morning exactly 2 weeks after IUI. Just got the call from the nurses that the beta is positive (Yay!), but numbers are, "lower than she would have expected today" at 51.

I go back Sunday for another beta. What does this mean? I'm scared.