Depression?

So this is what it feels like. An inescapable sorrow that washes over you from the minute you wake. IUI and Clomid #3 done. 16th 2WW in progress. Why can't I be hopeful instead of miserable?

I must channel the power of positive thinking! I must! Am I secretly willing this baby not to happen?

Again, AM I CRAZY???

Big Neg... again

I broke down and succumbed to my addiction, and bought 2 boxes of PG tests... and I used one.

I am too early, I know that, but I could not help it. It was negative.... 2 hours later it was negative... this morning, that same test was still negative.

I will not loose faith however. I am crampy, probably PMSing, but alas I am holding out hope. It's still early...